I've been wanting to see them since I saw Eve Ensler intervied on Oprah. I never had the time, the money and someone to go with...But I finally went to see a local production of it last night. I wasn't disappointed. It was dare I say??? a little ballsy, for lack of another word... I think instead of the "movie" they show kids in 5th grade they should do a tamer version of the vagina monologues...
so I never have a babysitter, my dearly beloved mother will only watch Lea when I work...which don't get me wrong I am extremely grateful for.... but the fact remains that I haven't seen a non animated film in going on 11 years....My mother God bless her sees that I don't go out and she wishes I would so occasionally she offers to watch Lea... this always results in disaster because she begins to revel in self righteousness as the date of my "recreation" approaches...then she feels put upon I mean really Isn't she so good??? really the least I could so after working full time, going to school, running my own life and house is...whatever...fill in the blank...i.e. send her on an all expense paid trip to Tahiti...buy her house pay her bills ...etc...when she starts to feel like this she gets very nasty... I mean really how could she be nice to such an ungrateful bitch like me....she will then come upstairs and berate me for any number of things after I calmly offer my apology for what ever I have done to offend (usually breathing) she accuses me of using her...sucking the life out of her and not being sorry for anything...she then revokes her offer to babysit...this is usually done as my ride is beeping their horn in front of the house... so then I have to make a choice...go anyway...as my mother will surely watch Lea or politely cancel my plans (which is what I usually do) out of worry of my mother taking her frustration out on my daughter but more to shove the whole situation up my mother's ass... the first time I was mad...the second time disappointed...then I just stopped going out all together.... which brings me to last night...
You already know that I'm f'd up...so I got the tickets to see the vagina monologues and called my best friend and tell her to save the date. Now the problem of babysitting... I could leave Lea alone...My parents do live right down stairs...I do leave Lea alone now while I go food shopping...she has my cell # and I'm close to home.... but this was different... it was at night and not for a necessity....see the headlines now..."child found alone while mother watches vagina monologues" sooooo what's a single girl to do???? BTW the two people who occasionally watch lea for me were unable to for their own reasons....
enter Ray... poor Ray.... he knows my daughter since she's 4...they love the hell out of eachother, they get along very well...so I go out on a limb and ask him to babysit...for once I just want ot go out and enjoy myself and not worry...remember that Ray is married so getting away from home can be challenging...But he works 2 jobs so he had to arrange for a night off which he did...Then he bought us a new TV and and some DVD's for Lea...we set the TV up ate dinner and off I went...Had a nice night I come home and....
Poor Ray is sitting exhausted and helpless in the blue arm chair with 4 tiny pony tails in his hair...My daughter God bless her is running wild in the house laughing at the havoc she's wrought... But everyone was relatively unscathed soooo it went well I guess...
I've stopped trying to live the "perfect" life, I'm 40 I have to live the life I have and that's what I'm trying to do...
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